I guess tonight I will continue, in not quite as grand a fashion, the tradition of love notes. This was something that held strong in an old blog of mine; a way to communicate the deepest parts of me to those around me. Sometimes they were funny, others more somber. There were many 'hellos', a few brokenhearted 'goodbyes', and I catalogued them all.

Tonight, one of my dearest catalogued for her tribe, and I count myself lucky to have been a part of that.

You gave me lovely words to think about, Sis. So let me give them right back to you, and the rest of you beauties.

My darlings--

You have no idea the impact you have on this broken little heart of mine. I say broken because there's just no way my heart can be whole when I feel this much love for all of you. It had to have shattered ages ago. 

There are so many intricate pieces to you all, little things that tie me up in the silliest ways. The way you love jazz music. The way your eyes light up when you see the first fireflies of the summer. The way we laugh about how nothing has changed. The way your long earrings tangle in your hair. The way you get heated when you talk politics and religion in the same breath. The way you sound when you sing next to me. The way Jesus is your favorite shade of everything, except that bottle of coke at your elbow. The way your voice rumbles through your chest. The way we talk missions like we never left. The way you smile when you get excited. The way you want to be the very best you, and how that makes me want to be the very best me. The easy way you love those around you. The way your family enveloped me completely.

I've always suspected I would fall in love quickly, and I guess you are the proof. All it's ever taken for you to mean something to me is a smile. The rest of you took it from there.

You smile so brightly on the days it is the hardest for you to do so. You make me laugh when all I want to do is cry. You eat the food I make for you, and feed me because you're worried about how I'm taking care of myself. You text, call, and write letters. You send me songs that will lift me, or Vines you think will make me laugh. You envelope me in hugs when my days get too hard. You hold my hand when you force me to watch scary movies with you, and on the rare night, let me sleep in your bed because I can't stand feeling alone. You encourage me to be better, to push higher because I can be so much more than I give myself credit for, and I know this is sounding an awful lot like it's all about me but...

...it's always been about you.

You anchor me steady. (Is that proper English? Probably not, I don't really care.) You keep me laughing. You keep me from going crazy on the best days, and off grid on my worst.

I wish I could adequately express the things I feel for you, but I don't think there will ever be words to do it justice. So this awkward blog post will have to do.

I adore you.

That's it.

That's all.

Siempre.