I haven't written in a while, but I neeeeed it. Writing has always soothed my soul, and today is no different.

Life is crazy, and I think it's going to feel that way from now until I'm dead. My friendships/relationships have been a little off wall lately and I feel tangled by them. It's like I don't know which way is up anymore, and to be honest I haven't felt this off balance since I got home from the mission.

Today a banner popped up on my phone letting me know that someone had posted something for me on Facebook. I probably stared at my phone for a good 5 minutes, unable to believe the name I saw because I hadn't talked to him in..forever. A few attempts before coming home, a few right as I got home, and then nothing. I never unfriended him, but I pretty much had our entire friendship confined to a random name in the 'friends list' section on a social media site. I didn't think I would ever hear from him on a personal level again.

But that banner said I was wrong. So I checked, and sure enough there was a small message three sentences long from him.

I almost cried.

We were never super close, it wasn't like we were best friends, but he was one of my people.

There are some people I meet and I just instantly fall in love with them, and he was one of them. He had me, has always had me really, and I would happily do anything for him. When I thought I would never get to talk with him again my heart broke a bit.

He was so colorful, so vibrant, so...kind. He was always so very kind and loving to me. Then he went radio-silent. But now he's back.

This post probably doesn't make sense, but I am really just so happy. Like down in the gut, I'm-going-to-bawl-myself-to-sleep-tonight happy. Because this is one thing I don't have to overthink, analyze, or break down.

It just is.

Also today I'm grateful for a Heavenly Father who loves me, and knows the best way to convey that love to me. 17 years ago today He sent my sister to my parents, and she became mine. :) I love her. I'm grateful for her.

Happy November.